The Non Running Runner

I want to run!  It's that simple, I want to run!  I have been in Rhode Island for 8 years and this is the most beautiful February that we have ever had.  Everyday, I see runners and I am missing awesome running weather.  They are on the main road near my house, in my neighborhood, the beach and the bike path.  Everywhere I drive, I see a runner.

It is funny to think about what make a person feel jealousy.  People are jealous of others because of money or status, maybe because they have a nicer car or better job.  Maybe it is the fact that they have tickets to the hottest show in town and you are gonna miss it.  For me, the last few weeks, I feel jealous every time I see a person running.  Every time I read about a race or someones training day, I start to feel upset it's not me.  I don't consider myself a jealous person, but for some reason, I can't help myself when it comes to this.

I remember the first few weeks of C25k.  I used to think to myself that I am not a "real" runner.  But by the time I got to the end of the program and ran my first race, I knew I was a runner and had been since day one.  It just took me a while to realize it and I was sorry that it took me so long to lace up and get out there. Well, 39 is better late than never.  So here  I am now, a runner who can't run.  Crazy, but yes, I still consider myself a runner.

Friday I should have some real answers to my back problem and I will run again.  For now, I am going to be thankful for what I can do and not focus on what I can't do.  This is just a small set back and life is full of those.  For the most part, this has been a good month, DH has the entire month off and this coming week is the kids school vacation.  It has been great being all together everyday.  It is unusual for DH to have so much time off and I am loving every minute of it, so are the kids.

I hope you are all enjoying the weekend.  I am not too sure if I will blog this week or not.  We will be doing vacation things.  Will you be racing this weekend?  Let me know how it goes.  I promise I won't be jealous, I just want to live vicariously through you.  I have said from the beginning of this blog that I would like to motivate people to do what they love, but I also want stay motivated by hearing about you doing what you love.

Run strong, think big!