Saturday, February 18, 2012

The Non Running Runner

I want to run!  It's that simple, I want to run!  I have been in Rhode Island for 8 years and this is the most beautiful February that we have ever had.  Everyday, I see runners and I am missing awesome running weather.  They are on the main road near my house, in my neighborhood, the beach and the bike path.  Everywhere I drive, I see a runner.

It is funny to think about what make a person feel jealousy.  People are jealous of others because of money or status, maybe because they have a nicer car or better job.  Maybe it is the fact that they have tickets to the hottest show in town and you are gonna miss it.  For me, the last few weeks, I feel jealous every time I see a person running.  Every time I read about a race or someones training day, I start to feel upset it's not me.  I don't consider myself a jealous person, but for some reason, I can't help myself when it comes to this.

I remember the first few weeks of C25k.  I used to think to myself that I am not a "real" runner.  But by the time I got to the end of the program and ran my first race, I knew I was a runner and had been since day one.  It just took me a while to realize it and I was sorry that it took me so long to lace up and get out there. Well, 39 is better late than never.  So here  I am now, a runner who can't run.  Crazy, but yes, I still consider myself a runner.

Friday I should have some real answers to my back problem and I will run again.  For now, I am going to be thankful for what I can do and not focus on what I can't do.  This is just a small set back and life is full of those.  For the most part, this has been a good month, DH has the entire month off and this coming week is the kids school vacation.  It has been great being all together everyday.  It is unusual for DH to have so much time off and I am loving every minute of it, so are the kids.

I hope you are all enjoying the weekend.  I am not too sure if I will blog this week or not.  We will be doing vacation things.  Will you be racing this weekend?  Let me know how it goes.  I promise I won't be jealous, I just want to live vicariously through you.  I have said from the beginning of this blog that I would like to motivate people to do what they love, but I also want stay motivated by hearing about you doing what you love.

Run strong, think big!


  1. Hi Nicole, I know that you will be fine~~you have to be!!! Enjoy this time with your beautiful family and have lots of fun making memories. I love you so very much and I am so proud of the woman that you are. You are my heart. I pray for you every day that God will help you and I know He listens. Life is Good and God is Great.

  2. Hope you get some good news on Friday! I felt the same way when I was injured this summer, so jealous of those other runners out there. Hope it's a quick detour in your running journey!

  3. Amen! I start PT tonight and hope for answers, too. Keep your chin up. I just blogged about the same thing. What a mind game injury is!

  4. Take care Nicole! You have a great start! I was prone to injury, as a lot of us are, in the beginning! BUT, I got stronger!! Our bodies just respond in start, "what are ya doin' to me?!" But, I seemed to get used to it all! Learned more, still learning, but doing sooo much better! I am injured now, as you write this. BUT, it's minor and affecting my motivation today, more than anything. I hate being out of routine/schedule! Take care. Listen to the advice. And, yes, best part is extra time at home,w/kids! Hope you feel better soon!

  5. Hey Nicole, hang in there. I'm so sorry that you are still stuck in the "wait and see" mode, but Friday is coming and with any luck you will be getting good news! I can relate tot he whole "not feeling like a *real* runner" in the beginning. I'm just getting to the point where I feel like I'm getting to be a "real" runner myself. Completed the C25K, ran my first race, and honestly I feel like I've put enough time in and done this enough to make it part of "what I do" in my normal routine and not just have it be something I'm squeezing into the rest of my life, if that makes any sense...If it's any consolation I'm stuck sitting on the sidelines while I'm sick as hell. Frustrating does not even come close to cover it.
    At any rate, hang tough and enjoy the family time. There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel, and with any luck, that tunnel ends on Friday.
    We're all pulling for you girl.

    1. Thanks Andy! Yes that does make sense and I totally agree. Sorry you are not feeling well. Hang in there, you'll be back in action in no time!